Remembered when my girls and I met up to talk about life, future, partners .etc, I would always be the odd one out. They are the career minded ladies but I'm more to the family and marriage side. I always tell them I want to get married at early 20s and start my own family. Probably under the influence from my family.
I'm very lucky to have a loving family. My dad is a role model of my future husband and I want to be like Mum. My siblings and I are very close to the extend that we can go out together. They are always full of nonsensical stuffs. My parents are always giving us the best since young, resulting in my destructive temper and attitude but who cares? This is me.
Suddenly, I have this feeling to pour out my confessions here, in my blog, because I don't know who to turn to. My mind is whirling and running like a marathon. I thought I know myself well in and out but slowly, I can't recognize myself anymore. I live for the sake of my family who loves me. I work for the sake of allowing time to pass faster in my life. Being a career minded person is definitely not me.
I have so much to say but I can't say it out. I feel tired in talking to anyone, but rather I prefer to coop myself at home. It is hard to find someone whom you love and who will love you wholeheartedly. I'm getting tired of going into a relationship. It brings me more tears than laughters.
只想一个人静一静。活着对我来说越来越没有意思了。
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